BROKEN BIRD ; DEATH GLARE ; MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL ; ENFP ;
AGGRESSIVE SUBMISSIVE ; AUTISTIC ; PRE-SCHOOL SHOOTING

THE CARCASS AND THE KINGDOM THE AFTERTASTE OF SUNDAY. my mother says, god sees all of me. the rot, the filth, the blackened corners i hide when the house is quiet. he knows what i've done on bathroom floors, what i've whispered into strange mouths just to feel alive. he knows the nights i prayed for the ceiling to collapse and bury me like a dog. he knows the bottles under my bed, the crusted towels, the way i've begged men i didn't love to tear me apart because i wanted to be ruined by someone other than myself. and still, she says, he loves me. i tell her love means nothing if it does not cure. what good in god's mercy when i still wake up bloated with shame, when i still crawl back into the same body that sags like a slaughtered pig left hanging too long in the summer heat. he can adore me from the heavens, crown me in invisible light, but i am still crawling, still slick with my own ugliness, still chewing at the bone of my own reflection until my gums bleed.

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my sweet lullaby ^zavet // i buried my friends alive ^zavet // dance like u in pain ^{kai angel} // xxxhibitionist ^deathbyromy // corpse kiss ^deathbyromy // california dreaming interlude ^deathbyromy // are you happy ^{kai angel} // агентство насилия ^{gotlibgotlibgotlib, sabu} // мания ^{slava marlow} // без аттестата ^{slava marlow, glukoza} // пускают стрелы ^{fallen777angel} // snakelike (the stars collide) ^whatsaheart // for her ^whatsaheart // vxlentine ^whatsaheart // (＋_＋) ИДИ НАХУЙ

джуд — это антиутопия в её первозданном виде,
дикая , неуклюжая , резкая
монотонный голос ( неважно о чём разговор: жизни, смерти, о ней ) , ангельская привлекательность ,
отталкивающая демоническая суть.

впусти меня в своё чрево,
дай нырнуть внутрь.

зубы у джуд всё ещё детские,
молочные
взгляд у неё пустой,
слишком прямолинейный для этого жестокого мира.

( или джуд сама всегда была жестока? ).
не знает.